SHE

...

The one who seeks the truth.
the one who always wanted to give up
when she did not success to sustain her changes.
Sometimes, it keeps the girl strong
but deep down inside, her heart still searching something
and she did not know what is it...

...

She is so stubborn. Yes..
When she did not get her heart some serenity.
She would find it, seek it.
And she would be very determined!
No one can stop her.

...

She did not realized the One up there,
Just waiting for her,
And she just noticed that
He only wanted her to put some effort on Him.
Because at one beautiful moment,
She found what so called happiness.
Yes.the purpose of life
Endlessly.

...

She is a nice person,
She loves kindness
She adores happiness
She loves kids and folks
She loves to create something.
But...she did not know till when..
She tried to find her stand
and..sigh..she did not know what is it.

...

And only now,
She feels it.
The truth.
No one can stop her now.
cause her obsession now..
Only Allah, Rasulullah and hereafter


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