FAITH

bismillah, ya allah, I just want to cry.. I don't know what happened to me? currently being so demotivated.. macam blur, tak tahu nak buat apa ya Rabbi. things getting hard but my heart also rasa berat ya Rabbi. help me to go through this. I don't know what keep me being negative. I don't want to be a doctor, I want to help people but not through medical field. I am not free. all sorts of incompetence tu datang. the feeling of last pro exam really take me so much. people say try to love your job.... sigh.. I'dont know how Ya Rabb...it seems so hard to me, but you Al fattah..I know you brought me here, I know you will help me through this. even in my dakwah also, I am slow. i feel I am not your good abid. ibadah aku pun ya Allah..... aku tak rasa apa- apa.. aku rasa hati aku dah mati..aku lost dalam diam.... I don't know what you want to tarbiyah  me...but don't leave me ya Allah and don't make me leave you. I have nobody to hold on excep...

Bismillah All gratitute to Allah swt for every breath that He lend me all this while until today. For today's post, i just want to share all my feelings entering housemanship. It just started two weeks back with PTM and orientation. Get to know how my life would be this two years (If not get extended). InsyaAllah. Tomorrow I will be start tagging.(learn as much as possible). 7 am to 10 pm. So many things to worry, "what if i labelled patient wrongly." "what if anything happened, i will be responsible of. "what if..... so many 'what if". I am not even started. then i think of, why i not put all the worries to Allah swt. Anxious by myself would not go anywhere. Currently i am reading ' The art of letting God.' by Mizi Wahid. it is just so on point about surrendering to God, Allah swt. we plan but Allah already planned for us eversince we came to this world. everything happens for you, not against you. Sometimes we just need to u...