a letter from your helpless abid..
bismillah, ya allah, I just want to cry.. I don't know what happened to me? currently being so demotivated.. macam blur, tak tahu nak buat apa ya Rabbi. things getting hard but my heart also rasa berat ya Rabbi. help me to go through this. I don't know what keep me being negative. I don't want to be a doctor, I want to help people but not through medical field. I am not free. all sorts of incompetence tu datang. the feeling of last pro exam really take me so much. people say try to love your job.... sigh.. I'dont know how Ya Rabb...it seems so hard to me, but you Al fattah..I know you brought me here, I know you will help me through this. even in my dakwah also, I am slow. i feel I am not your good abid. ibadah aku pun ya Allah..... aku tak rasa apa- apa.. aku rasa hati aku dah mati..aku lost dalam diam.... I don't know what you want to tarbiyah me...but don't leave me ya Allah and don't make me leave you. I have nobody to hold on excep...